Well Hello, I like blogging. I'd like to make my own blog, and have people read it. But I don't think I'd like them to know it was me typing in the words.
Anyway, I'm fully immersed in love, so, you know, that's nice. I've decided to never ever permanently live at home again. I'm leaving for Greece, for a 3 month stay, in exactly 6 weeks. I have no money, but I do finally have a car, a beautiful, wonderful, car.
There's pretty poetic words encompassing my brain, but they haven't quite felt up to the job of leaving and flowing out of my fingertips yet, so until then, I'm no fun.
i write in here because it's safe at least i think it is
okk I'm so afraid to see you in a few weeks, part of me doesn't want you to still feel how you did because..well i don't know. but the rest of me wants you to look me in the eyes and say "i said forever. i meant it." I don't want you to have forgotten, or given up. oh no.
I could go back to every laugh but I
don't want to go there anymore and I know all the steps up to your
door but I don't want to go there anymore talk to the wind, talk
to the sky talk to the man with the reasons why and let me know
what you find
I'll
leave my window open cause I'm too tired tonight To call your name just know
I'm right here hoping You'll come in with the
rain
I could stand
up & sing you
a song but I don't want to have to go that far & I,
I've got you down, I know you by heart & you don't even know
where I start talk to yourself, talk to the tears talk to the man
who put you here don't wait for the sky to clear
I'll leave my window open cause I'm too
tired tonight To call your name just know I'm right here
hoping You'll come in with the
rain
I've
watched you so long, screamed your name, I don't know what else I
can say, but I'll
leave my window open cause I'm too tired tonight for all
these games just
know I'm right here hoping you'll come in with the rain
I
could go back to every laugh but I don't want to go there
anymore..
WHERE IS HE? where is the other soul that You created to go along with mine?
1 All night long on my bed I looked for the one my heart loves; I looked for him but did not find him.
2 I will get up now and go about the city, through its streets and squares; I will search for the one my heart loves. So I looked for him but did not find him.
3 The watchmen found me as they made their rounds in the city. "Have you seen the one my heart loves?"
4 Scarcely had I passed them when I found the one my heart loves. I held him and would not let him go till I had brought him to my mother's house, to the room of the one who conceived me.
5 Daughters of Jerusalem, I charge you by the gazelles and by the does of the field: Do not arouse or awaken love until it so desires.
Oh God, take pity on me and spare my heart. i thought i found one, that my heart would love.
and now.....
Oh please understand, how am i to just give up. forget move on?
YOU CANNOT COME INTO MY LIFE, TWIST IT, CONTORT IT, TURN IT UPSIDE DOWN AND THEN JUST BACK OUT WHENEVER YOU WANT TO.
i feel like I'm crazy. I haven't changed out of these sweatpants all week my hair looks as if i've never washed it i have no idea what went on in class today.
don't you see. i was listening so carefully to hear my name fall from your lips. the second i even almost thought i heard it i whipped around.
why weren't you walking toward me with open arms? why didn't you take my hand and pull me close to you. DON'T YOU CARE. DON'T YOU HURT.
